Dear God/dess,

     Hi.  Today was the full moon lunar eclipse.  I was awoken at 4:44 in the morning.  Thank you for this awesome sign (look at angel numbers).  Today was interesting.  It had mostly shadowy aspects.  I was triggered a few times.  Not as majorly as the past, which I guess means that I am getting somewhere with shadow work.  I know you can do both positive focus and shadow work.  I believe that this is the truest way.
     Well I am happy to say that I will be going to another hangout with Contessa.  She does them on full moons.  I am happy that I met her because she has me on her show.
    I need to do more videos.  I need to get myself out there more.  God/dess I question if my followers, which is small, will be with me after this summer.  I worry about how my following is growing.  I want it to go faster.  Mainly because I want to feel validated.  I was not very validated as a child.  Now my sister is the high standard maker.  Mom laughed because my sister has become her.

john