Letters to the ALL

So I have a mixed feeling about Teal Swan.  Now before anyone gets on the comments attacking me this is a positive post.  But this video popped up in my "recommended" section on youtube.  I have set up with my guides that this section is where they put videos that will help me.  This was the video.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqWIGmVE4Wo

I'm going to try to do this everyday on this blog.  I will just write God/dess but after I will replace that with I inside my head.  At the end maybe I will put them all together and publish a book.  Actually this time, I have tried the journaling in the past but I always fall of.  I will hold myself to it this time.

Dear God/dess,

     Today I have been struggling with unhealed woulds coming to the surface.  It's funny actually, since saturn entered my sign Sagittarius I have felt that inner child work and shadow work has stopped working or at least what I though.  I had been calling out and asking for things to come forth for healing.  You seem to know when the best times to bring forth the healing are.  God/dess help me the program directors were announced.  At first I did not believe it/ didn't get what was going on.  But if you know who is the director of departments, I might quit during the summer.  I already hate class signups (though this year i am not going to drink soda during it this will keep my anxiety down).  I feel very split.  I love camp the kids are great.  Many people love me but they do not know how to show me love.  I think that last year I had too great of expectations.  I also tried to use to much force. Both of these kill manifestations.
     God/dess thank you for being the snow outside when I was going on a walk.  It was beautiful in the trees and in the air.  I would have taken a picture of it but I don't always get the feelings from pictures.  I just always need to experience more.  Please help me to meet my needs to always have desire.  I want people to be able to see me without me making a scene.  That's at camp.  People at school do see me.

this is all that is coming today,
John