Monday, March 30, 2015

bizarrely productive and more camp anxiety

Dear God/dess,

     Today after a little stress and not feeling like myself, I got really productive.  Like non stop.  Why can't I do this when I need or like to.  Why can't I seem to do this when automatic writing for Raziel.  But that will come I am not worried.  Thank you for giving me the space to be so productive.
     The main problem that I have been running into is more camp anxiety.  Why is this happening?  It was not like this last year.  Jk it was and I almost left.  But something keeps holding me there.  It might just be the crystal shop.  But I know that it is more than that. It is the people.  I have never felt such a strong connection to people in this life.  And that is what a main goal of my life.
     I'm tired and will be going to bed.

thank you for always being there and being me,
John

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