Dear God/dess,
Today after a little stress and not feeling like myself, I got really productive. Like non stop. Why can't I do this when I need or like to. Why can't I seem to do this when automatic writing for Raziel. But that will come I am not worried. Thank you for giving me the space to be so productive.
The main problem that I have been running into is more camp anxiety. Why is this happening? It was not like this last year. Jk it was and I almost left. But something keeps holding me there. It might just be the crystal shop. But I know that it is more than that. It is the people. I have never felt such a strong connection to people in this life. And that is what a main goal of my life.
I'm tired and will be going to bed.
thank you for always being there and being me,
John
Monday, March 30, 2015
Sunday, March 29, 2015
opprotunities
Dear God/dess,
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to be on Ron's radio show today. (See Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/ArchangelRazielwisdom ) It was a lot of fun and I am glad to share my knowledge with his followers. Thank you for the productivity that I had today. I'm just glad sometimes that I can do things.
Thank you for the inner child healing that I had today. I found a wonderful meditation. I went in because I have been feeling a loneliness recently. Its a longing loneliness, as if something is missing. It is my twin flame or a soul mate. So I went back. It was weird because my child was sort of cold. He was drawing sigils with chalk and asked me if remembered Archangel Michael's sigil. He said it in a very matter of fact business way. Have I not really been making intimate connections with people? Do I act like this to everyone? Thank you for giving me the chance to have these experiences. I need to find a shaman and have a soul retrieval done. OR is that just a limiting belief I have? There is a lot going through my head right now. I'm going to palm Sunday after this. Going to make some Brigit crosses.
Thank you for the Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt on Netflix.
Thank you for reminding me to do this post.
thanks for always being there,
John Magnuson
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to be on Ron's radio show today. (See Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/ArchangelRazielwisdom ) It was a lot of fun and I am glad to share my knowledge with his followers. Thank you for the productivity that I had today. I'm just glad sometimes that I can do things.
Thank you for the inner child healing that I had today. I found a wonderful meditation. I went in because I have been feeling a loneliness recently. Its a longing loneliness, as if something is missing. It is my twin flame or a soul mate. So I went back. It was weird because my child was sort of cold. He was drawing sigils with chalk and asked me if remembered Archangel Michael's sigil. He said it in a very matter of fact business way. Have I not really been making intimate connections with people? Do I act like this to everyone? Thank you for giving me the chance to have these experiences. I need to find a shaman and have a soul retrieval done. OR is that just a limiting belief I have? There is a lot going through my head right now. I'm going to palm Sunday after this. Going to make some Brigit crosses.
Thank you for the Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt on Netflix.
Thank you for reminding me to do this post.
thanks for always being there,
John Magnuson
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Letters to the ALL
So I have a mixed feeling about Teal Swan. Now before anyone gets on the comments attacking me this is a positive post. But this video popped up in my "recommended" section on youtube. I have set up with my guides that this section is where they put videos that will help me. This was the video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqWIGmVE4Wo
I'm going to try to do this everyday on this blog. I will just write God/dess but after I will replace that with I inside my head. At the end maybe I will put them all together and publish a book. Actually this time, I have tried the journaling in the past but I always fall of. I will hold myself to it this time.
Dear God/dess,
Today I have been struggling with unhealed woulds coming to the surface. It's funny actually, since saturn entered my sign Sagittarius I have felt that inner child work and shadow work has stopped working or at least what I though. I had been calling out and asking for things to come forth for healing. You seem to know when the best times to bring forth the healing are. God/dess help me the program directors were announced. At first I did not believe it/ didn't get what was going on. But if you know who is the director of departments, I might quit during the summer. I already hate class signups (though this year i am not going to drink soda during it this will keep my anxiety down). I feel very split. I love camp the kids are great. Many people love me but they do not know how to show me love. I think that last year I had too great of expectations. I also tried to use to much force. Both of these kill manifestations.
God/dess thank you for being the snow outside when I was going on a walk. It was beautiful in the trees and in the air. I would have taken a picture of it but I don't always get the feelings from pictures. I just always need to experience more. Please help me to meet my needs to always have desire. I want people to be able to see me without me making a scene. That's at camp. People at school do see me.
this is all that is coming today,
John
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqWIGmVE4Wo
I'm going to try to do this everyday on this blog. I will just write God/dess but after I will replace that with I inside my head. At the end maybe I will put them all together and publish a book. Actually this time, I have tried the journaling in the past but I always fall of. I will hold myself to it this time.
Dear God/dess,
Today I have been struggling with unhealed woulds coming to the surface. It's funny actually, since saturn entered my sign Sagittarius I have felt that inner child work and shadow work has stopped working or at least what I though. I had been calling out and asking for things to come forth for healing. You seem to know when the best times to bring forth the healing are. God/dess help me the program directors were announced. At first I did not believe it/ didn't get what was going on. But if you know who is the director of departments, I might quit during the summer. I already hate class signups (though this year i am not going to drink soda during it this will keep my anxiety down). I feel very split. I love camp the kids are great. Many people love me but they do not know how to show me love. I think that last year I had too great of expectations. I also tried to use to much force. Both of these kill manifestations.
God/dess thank you for being the snow outside when I was going on a walk. It was beautiful in the trees and in the air. I would have taken a picture of it but I don't always get the feelings from pictures. I just always need to experience more. Please help me to meet my needs to always have desire. I want people to be able to see me without me making a scene. That's at camp. People at school do see me.
this is all that is coming today,
John
Friday, March 27, 2015
my new bio
It is brief but it covers the bases:
The start of my journey is hard to pin down. Midway through 2011 I started see things again. I played along believing it was just my imagination. I then fell in love with a book series where a main angelic force was Archangel Raziel. Things really started moving on a fateful day when I went into a Wicca shop with some of my camp councilor friends on a day off. I felt a presence in this shop that I couldn't describe at the time. I now understand I was receiving an activation. I decided to purchase a tarot deck when I had come home from camp. 2014 was a year of my full awakening and I have been on a rocket of consciousness since.
The start of my journey is hard to pin down. Midway through 2011 I started see things again. I played along believing it was just my imagination. I then fell in love with a book series where a main angelic force was Archangel Raziel. Things really started moving on a fateful day when I went into a Wicca shop with some of my camp councilor friends on a day off. I felt a presence in this shop that I couldn't describe at the time. I now understand I was receiving an activation. I decided to purchase a tarot deck when I had come home from camp. 2014 was a year of my full awakening and I have been on a rocket of consciousness since.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
look at the shadows
I'll be honest. I'm a competitive person. This is my main dark aspect. Because there is really nothing to win over it makes me driven. Not in the same way in all areas. I would love to not procrastinate at all but that happens.
The main problem that I run into is that I believe that if more people listened to me the shift would go faster. But I am doing pretty good. One of the first shadows that I had to grapple with was the belief that 'no one will listen to me'. After thinking of some evidence to the contrary this belief was quickly weakened. And my traffic my pages and youtube increased. People have always listened to me. mainly because I have always had on opinion about everything. And people are finding my page.
youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj5L_fxx7M8mBYX7pRRSXiQ
face book page: https://www.facebook.com/ArchangelRazielwisdom
The main problem that I run into is that I believe that if more people listened to me the shift would go faster. But I am doing pretty good. One of the first shadows that I had to grapple with was the belief that 'no one will listen to me'. After thinking of some evidence to the contrary this belief was quickly weakened. And my traffic my pages and youtube increased. People have always listened to me. mainly because I have always had on opinion about everything. And people are finding my page.
youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj5L_fxx7M8mBYX7pRRSXiQ
face book page: https://www.facebook.com/ArchangelRazielwisdom
Saturday, March 21, 2015
gifts from nature.
The nature on campus have been giving me lots of gifts lately. I have been walking a lot because it is getting warmer. Also people seem to be getting crazier. Even some of the spiritual people who have a natural level of crazy. It just got crazy. So I have been outside communicating with my elemental siblings.
To start, I found a pinecone that is 6 inches long and 2 and 1/2 inches wide. It is beautiful. Second is this wonderful radiant clear quartz. Third is a wonderful birch staff. It is split between white and black all the way up showing that it is in perfect balance between the equal opposites.
To start, I found a pinecone that is 6 inches long and 2 and 1/2 inches wide. It is beautiful. Second is this wonderful radiant clear quartz. Third is a wonderful birch staff. It is split between white and black all the way up showing that it is in perfect balance between the equal opposites.
Saturday, March 7, 2015
fun crystal hangout!
this was a Google+ hangout that I participated in https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HiUBSCWlzR4
Thursday, March 5, 2015
Full Moon reflections
This full moon is hitting hard. The full moon is in Virgo, which the 12th house of my ascendant Libra. There are a few things that have come up. I have kind of fallen of the band wagon of my spiritual practice.
I have not been meditating daily. This is a big one. Meditation helps me concentrate and keep my mind focus. It helps me with my visualizations.
I also have not been visualizing. This realization hit me hard. I have been thinking/beating myself up over that I am not seeing manifestations. I tend to judge the external when I should really go within. I need to keep lining up with my desires even though I am not in circle. This moon is sending me a lot to think about.
I have not been meditating daily. This is a big one. Meditation helps me concentrate and keep my mind focus. It helps me with my visualizations.
I also have not been visualizing. This realization hit me hard. I have been thinking/beating myself up over that I am not seeing manifestations. I tend to judge the external when I should really go within. I need to keep lining up with my desires even though I am not in circle. This moon is sending me a lot to think about.
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